It was the summer of 2012 that I started having doubts about the LDS Church. That summer, I was away from my family at a remote job in Nebraska. I was there for five months, but still went to Sunday services at church. The LDS Ward felt like a different church without the presence of my family. I felt alone, only having the Bishop, and a few people say Hi. Therefore, I sat alone and didn’t feel welcome. This gave me time to ponder upon what I have been taught, and also do some research to see if this church is true or not. If it was true, then why didn’t people show love towards me. While feeling alone, I found websites to read and videos to watch on Mormonism. I found out different things about Joseph Smith, the first prophet of Mormonism. The unknown history of the Church. That Joseph Smith had over forty wives and even married kids as young as fourteen. In that relationship, Joseph Smith was thirty-seven years of age. This relationship would be considered illegal. Where if there were sexual relations it would be called “Statutory rape”.
I learned about the Book of Mormon Conradictions and how it plagiarizes the Bible in many ways. How Joseph Smith had many versions of the first vision. That the Book of Abraham was found to be a false translation. After this point, doubts were swirling in my mind. For all my life, I learned that I had to be in a super quiet place to be close to the Spirit. Therefore, I thought it was normal for the church and temples to be so quiet. How I needed to obey the ordinances and laws of the Mormon Church to be saved. That I needed to pray to Heavenly Father and not Jesus for answers. I wasn’t close to Jesus and didn’t have Him in my life. I searched for God and His truth, and thought God spoke to me at times in my life. I was hoping each Sunday that sermons would be on Jesus, but instead they were on the Temple or Joseph Smith. Joseph Smith was taught more often than even Jesus it seemed. If there was one thing that led me out of Mormonism it was the lack of Jesus and the Bible in the church. Everything else just topped it off.
In 2012, I really started having doubts about the church and went to many websites looking for anti-Mormon literature. In January 2013, I came to the realization that the church was false. I hated the fact that I went to a church that gives praise to Joseph Smith in song. After leaving the Mormon church, I decided to inform my Mormon friends and family about the many issues affecting Mormonism. At that time, I felt an urgency to tell everyone I knew about the research I found. Unfortunately, the message was not received well when I presented my findings. I was told by family members to not come over anymore. Even when there were important family gatherings I was not welcome. In 2014, I came across Dave Bartosiewicz’s YouTube Channel, which had a profound impact on my ability to effectively engage with Mormons and share my faith. I also started to watch Calvary Chapel on TV. I was fascinated by how Dave’s YouTube Channel was created to guide Mormons towards Jesus. So I watched his videos and the Calvary Chapel sermons as often as I could. I was just scared to go to Calvary Chapel by myself, so I didn’t attend it at that time.
In February 2015, I decided to make the first steps of my faith in God and go to a church. That Sunday, I finally went to a Calvary Chapel. The first time I set foot in the church building my heart began to swell inside of me. The praise music was so amazing, and I couldn’t believe how wonderful I felt inside. I had been searching for so long for Jesus and I finally found Him. That year I was still fighting fleshly lusts and getting over bad habits, but this began to change. It was at this time that I gave my life to Jesus. Then in November I felt a change in my life from God. So I told the Lord that I wanted to be committed to serving Him. I started reading the Bible daily and praying often. On December 6th 2015 I gave my life to Jesus and got baptized. Since then, I’ve devoted my life to Him. I’ve been writing devotionals and posting them on Facebook ever since. I want to always have Jesus in my life. This also started my ministry to the Mormon people. My desire in life is to follow Jesus and to draw others to Him also for salvation. Jesus is my all. His love is amazing. Amen.
Philippians 1:7-17 (KJV)
7 Even as it is meet for me to think this of you all, because I have you in my heart; inasmuch as both in my bonds, and in the defence and confirmation of the gospel, ye all are partakers of my grace.
8 For God is my record, how greatly I long after you all in the bowels of Jesus Christ.
9 And this I pray, that your love may abound yet more and more in knowledge and in all judgment;
10 That ye may approve things that are excellent; that ye may be sincere and without offence till the day of Christ.
11 Being filled with the fruits of righteousness, which are by Jesus Christ, unto the glory and praise of God.
12 But I would ye should understand, brethren, that the things which happened unto me have fallen out rather unto the furtherance of the gospel;
13 So that my bonds in Christ are manifest in all the palace, and in all other places;
14 And many of the brethren in the Lord, waxing confident by my bonds, are much more bold to speak the word without fear.
15 Some indeed preach Christ even of envy and strife; and some also of good will:
16 The one preach Christ of contention, not sincerely, supposing to add affliction to my bonds:
17 But the other of love, knowing that I am set for the defence of the gospel.